Hehe.. Halo halo~ Long time din came here le.. ^^
How're u all?? Hmm, do some updates now.. Recently, should be not that busy de, but dono y, still seem to be very busy.. Anyways, there's oli 2 event that i really remember.
The 1st one is the CNY night. Haha, that night, i nvr knew that everyone's that formal, so i juz wear something simple there.. Who knows, when i reach there, wow, everyone's dressed up like attending a wedding. Haiz, felt so out of place that night.. And was not feeling very well that time?? Hehe...(Fall sick after i came bac from Miri, maybe.. Homesick??? :P) Anyways, the programmes were huge success.. Enjoyed a lot.. The emperor of the night is a Japanese guy!! Exchange student from Japan.. Hehe, final yr senior, Takaya.. As for his looks, still ok ba.. Haha.. The empress of the night is a senior.. Dressed in kimono.. Funny~ ^^
The 2nd event is.. I finally joined as a volunteer!!! Last sunday.. Hehe, it's truly exhausting, but, i learnt a lot a lot... ^^ Erm, the event is held by Tzu Chi, although it's a Buddhist association, still decided to join them, cz i really dono where to find a Christian social association now..^^ Erm, the event that day is 义诊。。Slept for 3 hours oli that day, then start preparing le. We went to a village, vry vry rural de.. So nice.. And the team was so grand. I din know there's so much ppl joining.. Hehe.. 3 bus of volunteers, excluding the medical workers.. N, tis volunteering is not for free eh.. We needa pay RM25 if we wanna join this event.. Hehe.. :)
Anyways, that day, when we reached and started preparing, wow.. Realised there's a lot of doctors and also the paramedics joining the event. Hehe, not oli buddhist o, malays, hindus, and our myanmar's lecturers.. ^^ Really really liked the feeling.. Bt, haiz, don really liked it when they start complaining and criticising.. Anyways, i'm too excited to bother about those voices.. Erm, at 1st, i'm arranged to help in bringing the patients after they consult the doctors. But suddenly, a guy asked if there's any medical students among us, then he asked me to go in and helped the ENT(ear nose throat) teams. The ENT team oli got 3 ppl, a medical officer, a specialist, and a lab technologist.. ^^ All chinese. The specialist is a female, and the MO is a guy. The MO is very nice to me^^ The specialist is also vry good, juz she doesn't really talk to me. (She talked a lot with the MO though..)The MO teached me a lot of things.. Every patient that came to him, or the team, he'll tell me some new knowledge.. Gained a lot from him, and he's vry willing to share,, ^^ Hehe, he even gave me a small motivational talk. Felt so lucky.. Bt at the same time, realised how insufficient is my knowledge.. Anyways, although i'm really exhausted that day, i din regret going there..
But, from that event, i have another insight.. We humans are really fragile.. Too weak, that we're unable to be change anything, to control any physical things.. R we still the same tomorrow? R we sure we're gonna live until the next sunrise. Even if the doctor diagnose u with a benign tumour(ermm.. won die de tumour, unless it becomes cancer..), r u sure tomorrow it won turn into cancer? Or even if it doesn't, what abt other accidents or events that might happen?? Busy for the whole day, what have we change?? The speakers that day announced proudly that we'd change the lives of the people who went to us that day.. That statement really makes me wonder.. What and how did we change their lives?? Did we??? ^^ Hehe.. Only God can control changes.
Hmm, after that.. i'm constantly vry tired.. Vry vry tired.. Physically and mentally.. Haiz.. Until today.. (No la, 3 days oli.. Hehe..) N.. Recently, i mmight really be overstress, until now i developed some sleeping disorder.. Insomnia!!! Before this, within 2 min on bed, i'm sure soundly aslp le.. Bt now, i'll use more than mins to get into my slp.. N everytime before going to bed.. I need to work vry vry hard to clear my mind.. My mind is full of thoughts.. Argues, doubts, secrets, sadness.. Without any place to leak it out.. N.. The consequences is.. Those thoughts, turned into my dreams.. Many many dreams everynight.. Countless, random dreams.. Which really makes me wanna shout; I HATE DREAMS!! Haiz.. Sometimes feel even more tired after i wake up.. Cz the whole night my mind is travelling round and round the different dreams.. N.. All these... contribute to a vry vry moody me.. I almost break it out several times on my frenz and ppl around me.. Aiks.. Luckily u ppl are not around.. I don wanna hurt u ppl too..
Hmm.. Anyways, i'm sure it'll pass de.. Juz hopefully i can restrain myself from hurting my frenz agn.. Guys, pray for me that i can keep a smile on my face k?? I really need some powers of prayers now.. ^^ N pray that i won dream anymore.. :)
K lar.. That's all for now.. Good night all!!
